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[16 Jan 2007|09:32pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

so life has been pretty good lately. actually, i wish that i could take the last two weeks of my life and play them over and over. i cant wait till i can afford to move out and not stress about money. that is gonna be the life. the only thing that can complete me is a female figure. but who knows, that could mess everything up. well see if that ever comes around. lyrics? ha

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Oh I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
Oh I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
This rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so

When she's saying, oh, that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah-eh-eh

Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
She's drunk again and looking to score
Oh I know I should say no but
It's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem

When she's saying, oh, that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah-eh-eh

1 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[10 Jan 2007|10:49pm]
everything is pretty much normal for me. workin. kickin it hard. tryin to find something or someone to make me happy. some more lyrics for the road.

Are you gonna live your life wonderin’ standing in the back lookin’ around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin' how you’ve grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I’m on my feet, I’m on the floor, I’m good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it’s all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it’s all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I’m on my feet, I’m on the floor, I’m good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Crimson and clover, over and over.
Our house in the middle of the street, why did we ever meet?
Started my rock 'n roll fantasy.
Don't don't, don't let's start, why did we ever part?
Kick start my rock 'n rollen heart.
I’m on my feet, I’m on the floor, I’m good to go.
So come on Davey, sing me somethin’ that I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Here tonight.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine
I wanna fall in love tonight.
1 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[02 Jan 2007|03:01am]
last night of course was pretty fun. had a nice little rager at my house. everyone that decided to not call me back was lame for sure. uh not much new going on. chillin on break. kickin it every day. been trying to do more clothes shopping cuz i never have new clothes. going well so far. christmas was ok. didnt really ask for anything. got the essentials. hah. other than that. livin the dream.
Are you one of them?

finally off from work till wednesday [24 Dec 2006|04:07pm]
[ mood | relieved ]

it seems like every song i listen has some bearing on my life. its pretty wierd. well here comes one more.

it hasn't been that long since we drank to the sunset, until it was gone. and down with it went our pain and fear, as we slowly broke contact more and more, with every beer. and we passed out in each other's arms, both admitting we'd never felt better. never felt so warm. but awoke in each other's eyes, without wearing a stitch of clothing. we were both deeply in disguise. and maybe i just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted. in my own special selfish way. and if i hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted. hell knows where your heart would be today. maybe with me. it seems like it's been so long since we kissed through the darkness, until it was dawn. up with it came our pain and fear that we'd already lost each other. we both knew that the end was near. maybe i just set aside the fact that you were broken hearted. in my own special selfish way. and if i hadn't set aside the fact that you were broken hearted. hell knows where your heart would be today. maybe with me. maybe with me. maybe with me. maybe with me. maybe with me. maybe with me. maybe with me.

1 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[18 Dec 2006|11:17pm]
[ mood | Fucking Fantastic ]

Its pretty funny when you know something is going to happen but the person that is gonna do it, denies that it is gonna happen until it actually does. well that probably doesnt make sense to anyone but me. haha. well in other news. lots of fun journeys with pat lately. definately plenty more to come. school is finally over till end of january. christmas is coming but it doesnt even really feel like it anymore. growing up is wierd. one more year and no longer a teen. pretty nuts. started working out to try to channel my anger to something good. I always feel so much better about myself when i do. i just need to keep it up. so pretty much in the last week i have turned my life completely upside down and im trying to make it a good thing. its tough but whatever. this is an Alkaline trio song that i feel reflects me well. also decided to change some of the words to fit me better. haha.

"My Friend Pat"

I dont care who you've been sleeping with these days
You're outta my hair
It's growing just above my smiling face that I wear
Every night I smoke myself to sleep
Not thinking about you
Not thinking about anything at all

I don't care who you've been dining with these days
It's more than fair
Much rather be smoking anyways
With my friend Pat
Who lives so fucking far away
Yet not as far as you
Even though you live right down my fucking street

And I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all these drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend Pat can tell me what to do

I dont care who you've been kissing on these days
It's out of my hands
and in my mouth with such a pleasant taste
I need a bowl to smoke it all away without a trace
And then i'll smoke 23 more
To wipe this stupid smile off my fucking face

I'm tired of sleeping with myself
I'm tired, all those drinks and drugs no longer help
I'm tired of lying about not thinking of you
Maybe my friend Pat can tell me what to do

2 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

Yup, The Domeshot, You Need One [12 Dec 2006|12:20am]
so nightmare before x-mas last night was the best thing ever. AFI, Taking Back Sunday and My Chemical Romance all together. the best line-up ever. Couldnt be more happy that i spent $50 on that show. uh... other than that, everything is about the same. pretty lame. new years should be really fun. celebrating the one year anniversary of not remembering anything after 8pm because i puked on myself and the couch and the floor and in the tub, and then blacked out. its sad that i cant do that again this year because of the acne medicine in action right now. but pat and i are still gonna get nuts as possible... maybe in honor of last years competition, another test of the same sort but different substance. hah. and on that note, i am out.
3 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[05 Dec 2006|10:50pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

so i was cruisin with adam tonight, just chillin and we drive by the mall and as were coming towards it, we see this light and we thought it was like a blimp or something. so i said we have to drive and find out what that is. it was oval with lights that seemed to be spinning. as we got closer to the mall it got larger until we got to a point were it seemed like it had a tractor beam on us as we went through the intersection. it was really crazy. it started to get bigger and it really looked like a UFO, well technically it was, hah. then like two seconds later it just disappeared, we kept going to try and find it, and it was nowhere to be found. so i said turn around and go back to where we did see it, if its not moving we should be able to see it again. but we did and saw no more of that light. needless to say it was completely nuts. and the rest of the night we just played that scene over and over again in our heads. it kinda freaked us out too. crazy shit. then we proceeded to check out christmas lights, which also was dope. we went to starlight circle and to the place by stan's house where the one house has like ten million lights and things. we also went to stan's where he has this igloo that has a snowman and santa on top. we watched them as they go up and down and it looks like they give eachother head. it is really funny. just the biggest smiles when they go down. yuuup. and that was the night... i think. i definately think i shall but putting my thoughts to words on this device more often.

1 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind [04 Dec 2006|12:14am]
its kinda wierd how life always seems to be changing, but for me, i found that it always changes in the same pattern and i hate it. but its my fault that it does and i need to change that. i feel like i deprive my life of so much because im scared of what will happen. i need to stop planning on doing things and just do them. as stan would say, i need to upgrade to Mikie 2.0 but not just with what he is referring to. hah. inside joke for those of you that are confused. Welcome the mikie that doesnt give a shit and does what he wants haha. The asshole that all girls say they dont want but really go for. we will see how that goes. peace
4 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

booyaaa grandma [26 Nov 2006|08:23pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

its been quite some time since i have written anything in this thing, or ever looked at it. haha. its pretty cool being able to look back see what was happening in my life on certain days. but pretty much the same feeling every post and yet to change. haha. maybe again soon.

Are you one of them?

[03 Jul 2006|01:50am]
[ mood | stressed ]

well i wish i had something new and exciting to write like the rest. but pretty much life does not change for me. sometimes it even seems like it rewinds and plays over again in the same way it did before. its nice havin casey back in town for a little. he brings an element that is definately lacking when he is not here. other than that, i just work like every day. and hangin with the regulars. with lots of poker and halo in the mix. still on the unsucessful downward spiral when it comes to women. hopefully that changes sometime soon. and if you got this far in my post, thanks and peace.

1 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[04 May 2006|10:53pm]
[ mood | furious ]

sooooo i am amazingly pissed off, i could literally go on a shooting spree. good thing i dont have the means or the heart to do it. i got off work at 10 tonight after working 8 and a half hours. and i start to drive away. come to find out my left side mirror is completely torn off and the right one was bent in the wrong direction. looks like somebody kicked it or something. so as you might guess im the most pissed ive ever been in my life. hands down. so if anyone hears anybody talking or something and might have any info i would greatly appreciate it. thanks.

2 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

you'll shoot your eye out kid [01 May 2006|10:55pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

so todays so called "boycott" was just an excuse for mexicans to be lazy and not go to work. thats pretty lame. thats all. haha.

2 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

"watch the recoil the scope will get you" famous last words haha [30 Apr 2006|07:07pm]
[ mood | bored ]

so pretty much, im soooo bored that i am actually updating this thing for the first time in months. since the steelers dominated the superbowl. um not much has been happening. i go to school every day. i work at my uncles glass company still. but barely. and i just started working at costco last week. it is pretty nice. everyone is really cool there and it has a decent future. so if anyone is every bored im pretty much there from 5 to 10 everyday but tues and sundays. some days more than that. ummmm. the hotdogs are kinda getting back together. but who knows whats going on with that. i want to drop a couple thousand into my car for some reason. and if i sell my amp and guitar i just might. hit me up sometime. im bored as shit right now.

10 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

all that need be said [05 Feb 2006|10:38pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

FUCKING STEELERS! YESSSSSS.

2 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[29 Jan 2006|12:55pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Steelers winning the superbowl anyone? fuck yea, its been way to long since they have been there. always playoffs never superbowl. lets finish it for my boy bettis, in his hometown for his last game. 1,2,3,4 seed gone in afc due to the steelers on the road, steelers start in 6th. Champs. and ill be eatin my words hard if they lose. haha.

1 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

faaa away.......guuh [18 Jan 2006|09:44pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

sooo i dont really know what to say. but i figured i should try to put something in here every once and a while. not much as usual. started second semester at State today. its gonna be a pretty nuts semester. but i guess im gonna try to actually do somewhat decent. still on the fence about the whole guitar thing. i want bass stuff really bad though. and now i think im gonna have to put some money into my car. i need new shocks in the front i think. and there is something wrong with my steering collumn too. who knows. but i want my car to look good as well. and thats about it for todays rant.

4 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

he who hesitates, masturbates [11 Jan 2006|09:34pm]
[ mood | content ]

so not much goin on. im goin with Fd and his fam up to laughlin for the weekend. that should be fun. i am so close to wanting to sell my guitar stuff and buy bass stuff. i dont know what to do. pat sent me all of our songs lyrics and future songs as well. and they are just amazing. haha i love them. chillin with james was pretty tight the other day as well. didnt have to deal with the smoke anymore. always a good thing. well i dont know what else is left to say. ummmmm. peace out playaz.

3 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[03 Jan 2006|09:01pm]
[ mood | blank ]

so casey said that i never update this thing so here i go. not much going on lol. umm new years i drank 12 shots in 2 hours and i ended up passed out by 10 and puked all over dans apartment. to say the least i did not feel good that night or the next day. i really want to get ahold of all the pics people took of me. i hear some nuts stuff. ATWH is still doin its thing. im still buying useless shit for my guitar to sound better. i want to now start buying bass stuff. well thats all i got to say about that. peace out.

3 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

[28 Nov 2005|06:54pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

been awhile since ive uped this bitch. i finally bought a new car. finally. 2003 VW GTI VR6. $13,000. so pretty much im poor again like everyone else. this weekend was quite some fun. party hard. the babe hunt went better then usual but still nothin. haha. well thats all i got for now i guess. peace.

6 Kids broke edge today Are you one of them?

"the only way to improve, is to be thought of as crazy and stupid" [20 Nov 2005|01:13pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

havent updated in a while so this is all i got. lifes been goin alright. had fun last night at dans. been working on getting a car this weekend. hopefully today i will be able to seal the deal. i watched a movie called "serindipity" this morning and i have to say that it is a great movie. it makes me feel good inside. its all about how things happen for a reason and love and shit. it was really good. gave me hope in a world emptiness. peace out playaz.

Are you one of them?

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